I love anticipating the beginning of a new year. It's a chance to look back at the last 12 months and see how we measured up and how to do better in the coming year. It is one more chance to start fresh, to begin a new life. It's a time of hope for the days ahead.
The end of every year causes me to do some soul searching and this year is no different.
2010 has been filled with house projects that kept us busy on weekends, especially up until July when we listed our house for sale. The remainder of the year I spent countless hours looking for a prospective new home and keeping our house ready to show at any moment. It seems like all I did for the past several months is pick up and clean the house constantly and nag others to pick up after themselves. I hate that. I'm not complaining, but this is a monotonous routine and I find no joy in it. I would much prefer to have a messy house and have construction going on. I know, there's definitely something wrong with me!
This past year was also a year of experiencing a pre-empty nest of sorts. Our oldest daughter graduated from high school this past June and started working a full time job a month later and began taking some classes at college in the fall. Our youngest daughter started her senior year in high school this fall and has a part time job. All of you with younger children, once your children have their own vehicle, they will rarely be home home. You have to make plans to see them or you won't. I was actually glad that I didn't have a job this year because being home allowed me to be more available to my girls in these last years before they fly the nest. Being available for little things like a forgotten book or homework or delivering forgotten work shoes between class and work when there wasn't any time to come home... or for being home mid afternoon to pack a snack and say "have a good day" to my daughter before she goes off to work... or for short trips to run errands with them or for little impromptu conversations.
The housing market crash and losing my income in 2009 was bad, but being home was priceless...time during the last few years of my daughter' living at home that I could never get back. Romans 8:28 comes to mind here. " And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Most times it's only in retrospect that we see this. When we are going through uncertain times, we just need to trust Him.
Back to soul searching... It must be mid-life or an empty next thing this year because a lot is changing around me and I'm feeling a nudge to start something new. A change in my home, whether it be moving to a new one, or just changing all the paint on the walls in the home we have. These words don't just describe the desire for changing my home, they are a metaphor for my life right now. Since my girls don't need my time much anymore, there are so many possibilities. A new job, a business, volunteer?... the opportunities are endless.
With that said, I'm ready to say goodbye to 2010 and am happy to celebrate a new year and look forward with hope to all that lies ahead in 2011.
Thank you to all who have stopped by this past year. Words are not enough to express how much that means to me.
Hoping all of you have a Happy New Year!!!